My therapist really helped me deal with this aspect of recovery. It felt so much easier to stay protected and in a shell. It is something I really have to work hard at. I am just not as resilient to this day. I am not crushed like I am going to cry but when friends let me know it hits me like it never did before....this pain is far reaching. I know my husband struggles most that this is a byproduct of what he did.
Hopeful 30, I know exactly what you mean. For some reason, a few weeks ago, I became numb. The timing coincides with the one year anniversary of his full disclosure and of our separation (which ended over the summer) but I don't know if that's a clue as to why it's happening. I am in a shell, but I don't know how it got here -- I don't think I chose it; it's as if my heart chose it for me.
My therapist really helped me deal with this aspect of recovery. It felt so much easier to stay protected and in a shell. It is something I really have to work hard at. I am just not as resilient to this day. I am not crushed like I am going to cry but when friends let me know it hits me like it never did before....this pain is far reaching. I know my husband struggles most that this is a byproduct of what he did.
ReplyDeleteHopeful 30, I know exactly what you mean. For some reason, a few weeks ago, I became numb. The timing coincides with the one year anniversary of his full disclosure and of our separation (which ended over the summer) but I don't know if that's a clue as to why it's happening. I am in a shell, but I don't know how it got here -- I don't think I chose it; it's as if my heart chose it for me.
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