The grief does help to heal, the fear will eventually go, to learn to trust again will appear. Being strong is not easy, but it can be done. Thank you for the Thursday Thought.
I'm back reading your posts after 4 years of trying to recover. He left me this time for his new AP. 23 years old. He hates me this time around tho. Has completley turned on me and we are going through a divorce. It's a sad terrible life. I wish I could breathe. He promised. Said his skin crawled coming home to me and had to go he was just not happy. Unbearable after everything. I am now completely alone while he could not be happier to be rid of me. It's horrifying to my heart. I dont see how healing and acceptance can happen yet. Last time i had him even though I didnt want him at the time he stuck around and helped me deal with the betrayal. Thia time he is completely gone.a total stranger to me. Told me guilt is not enough for him to stay with me anymore and just because he ruined my life doesnt mean he has to ruin his own. Its unbearable. 11 years of marriage and 20 years together.
I can´t imagine how it must be to go through that excruciating pain for a second time, but I know that you will recover from this! You are so strong, having done what you did! You have compassion and grace. You have tried it and while you became stronger it seems that he hasn´t understood anything. He is fleeing reality again into a fantasy bubble. His problem!
Try only to concentrate on yourself now. Look forward. You are not alone! And most importantly your life is not ruined. There is so much more out there! Meet friends, find new ones, go out for beautiful walks, discover cities, find a new hobby that makes you happy. Embrace the world and it embraces you. Step for step, day for day. You know there will be hard days but you know that they will get less.
The grief does help to heal, the fear will eventually go, to learn to trust again will appear. Being strong is not easy, but it can be done. Thank you for the Thursday Thought.
ReplyDeleteI'm back reading your posts after 4 years of trying to recover. He left me this time for his new AP. 23 years old. He hates me this time around tho. Has completley turned on me and we are going through a divorce. It's a sad terrible life. I wish I could breathe. He promised. Said his skin crawled coming home to me and had to go he was just not happy. Unbearable after everything. I am now completely alone while he could not be happier to be rid of me. It's horrifying to my heart. I dont see how healing and acceptance can happen yet. Last time i had him even though I didnt want him at the time he stuck around and helped me deal with the betrayal. Thia time he is completely gone.a total stranger to me. Told me guilt is not enough for him to stay with me anymore and just because he ruined my life doesnt mean he has to ruin his own. Its unbearable. 11 years of marriage and 20 years together.
ReplyDeleteI can´t imagine how it must be to go through that excruciating pain for a second time, but I know that you will recover from this! You are so strong, having done what you did! You have compassion and grace. You have tried it and while you became stronger it seems that he hasn´t understood anything. He is fleeing reality again into a fantasy bubble. His problem!
DeleteTry only to concentrate on yourself now. Look forward. You are not alone! And most importantly your life is not ruined. There is so much more out there! Meet friends, find new ones, go out for beautiful walks, discover cities, find a new hobby that makes you happy. Embrace the world and it embraces you. Step for step, day for day. You know there will be hard days but you know that they will get less.